It hit me!

Okay so today, well . . . the other day it really hit me that in June I will be 30, which I know isn't that old, but it made me really look at things. I can remember when I was young(older elementary) thinking that the adults around me really seemed to have it together and as I got older I always thought I would be wiser and more put together than I am. I always thought that my life would be special and that I would be making major impacts in the world. I thought I would be a woman that got up every morning early, exercised, do a whole days work before anyone was awake. Then as the rest of the family got up I would fix breakfast and get everyone dressed and groomed. I felt like my house would be put together and I would know how to handle my kids. I would have a regimented cleaning schedule so there was never a time when people saw my house as a disaster. I felt like I would be busy with events in the community that help people to better their lives. So in reality I was a great dreamer!!! I never thought of myself as a dreamer but I guess I am. I love my family, the set up we have and I know God has a plan but I sure wish I was a little more like my dream.

Making the Wisest Decisions

Sometimes in life you come across moments where your choices are hard and not so clear but not morally compromising at the same time. The choices are not morally compromising because either decision is good and beneficial. It becomes hard and not so clear when you are trying to decide which good answer is better or more beneficial, or the wisest. I think these decisions are the hardest because there is no obvious answer. IE Going to the movies with your friends or going to an amusement park with your family. Neither one will have a bad effect on your life but will spending a day with your family build those relationship and give more enjoyment than going to the movies with your friends and building that relationship. See what I mean. Or maybe it is a decision on which job to take. Both are the same time frame and pay the same. The only difference is the company it is with. There are more examples but I can't think of them. I am facing something right now that is one of these very tough decisions. I could really use some type of revelation and I know God will reveal more to me as time goes on because the decision process is still in its early stages but I can't help processing where I am at now.

Do you have any examples or maybe ways that help you decide? Please share.

Graceful Karma@?!

Our students are studying grace vs karma at the church right now so I have a few questions for you.
Do you believe in Karma?...you know- what goes around, comes around? Do we constantly live that way in our thoughts and life styles?

or

Do you believe in Grace? ... you know the, getting what you don't deserve or not getting what you do deserve? Is this the way we live and what we give?

Can we live our lives with a mix of the two thoughts or is it necessary to choose?

What are some of your experiences in either realm?

Importance of Messes

So I started my day by tackling my dishes. You know, unloading the washer and then loading it back, to the point it almost needed ran again. Then hand washing the ones that are supposed to go in the washer. I then proceeded to start lunch and dinner(the slow cooker is pretty great!) and by the time I cleaned up that mess I had spent from 9-11:30 in the kitchen. So crazy me decided around 1:15 to do a project with the girls(making applesauce) which proceeded to take another 45 minutes to make and clean up. Then about 4:45 we started to set up for dinner and that, with cleaning up, took 45 min. (Although its not really clean because I still have dishes to unload from the washer and reload the washer.)

That was my day spent trying to keep the kitchen mess free but, the result is, the rest of the house was neglected and is now full of toys. All this was to show that our house is inundated with mess 100% of the time But I would NOT have it any other way. It is not natural for me to let messiness exist in my house, and love it, but when I think about it I beam with joy. This mess that we are constantly fighting is what shows that our house is full of life. We are making memories, building relationships, and learning from new experiences and all of those things are messy. Therefore messiness rocks!! .... well most of the time.

A Decision to Account

As I sat in service, Saturday night, I came to realize that there are a lot of things I can't seem to remember. Plus... I can't remember the last time I wrote my thoughts down. So here I am accounting for my day, my life. Maybe this will also be a way to account for the little things that the girls do that I say I will never forget. My real hope is that this will take the place of my journal that never happened and help me distinguish what my hopes and dreams might be because they seem to be totally different than they were 4-5 years ago. So here we go y'al, lets give this a try!